i wish i was with you,
but i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him.



lalalalalalalala i love you.


i got friends who
lala lie
will help me pull through
lala lie
lalala lie.

so guess what i'm done
drawing you pictures.

i hate that i am about to write this.


but, i miss Rodney.
i miss him when i'm talking to him.
i miss having someone to cry on.
i miss having someone to count on.
i miss how he made me laugh.
i miss how he made me cry.
i miss sleeping next to him.
i miss hugging him and knowing he loves me.
i miss him saying, "I love you" when i'm at my worst.
i miss knowing that he's always there.
i miss kissing him.
i miss holding his hand.
i miss laughing at his jokes.
i miss hating him.
i miss wishing he didn't do the things he did.
i miss crying because of him.
i miss smiling because of him.
i miss his dad.
i miss watching movies with him and making comments on how ridiculous it is.
i miss listening to music with him.
i miss cuddling with him.
i miss loving him.
i miss texting him every day.
i miss him getting jealous about the fact that i hung out with other guys.
i miss........ him. i miss him.


i miss him
i miss him
i miss him
i miss him
i miss him

i hate when kids do drugs. but i hate all the kids who don't do drugs.


the worst part
might be
Gage
and the fact that
he could be
perfect
except that Bobby's
around, and
i can't stop
wondering about
what i could have with him.
even though i can see
that what i
might have
with Gage
would be better.

hahahahaha. irony.
when i was younger,
i picked the name "Fier" to go by.
also named my.. conscience? or perhaps anti-conscience, that.

Fier, translated from French. "to trust".







i'm such a liar. :]

but you better do it soon, no time will be better. she don't say a word, and she won't say word until you kiss the girl.



a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month a month ago.
text, twice.
a month a month a month a month a month amonthamonthamonthamonth ago.




disappointed?
and yet. still hopeful.
damn you, hope.

a month a month a month a month ago.